oh fuck. im feeling really guilty. i must be a jerk for blasting at him for noreason. i spoke nonsense. oh shit, nabila, why cant u just think before you act?sheesh. i cant deny that when im angry, i will speak words that i dont mean itat all. argh, stupid laaah stupid okaayy nabila. seriously, i must apologise forblasting over no particular reason at all. and my relation with him is makingthings worse. i mean he said, i said, he said, i said and atlast, he decided. icouldnt help but just run to the highest storey and cry and kick everythingthere. sheesh. and our ruined plans, just everything is gone. we did saidlast year that we will go geylang the next year but when the year came,everything = ruined. ugh, the plan i've been looking forward and say everything i should say, all efforts, down the drain. bracelets? he would throw it into my face i bet you cause my name's there. sigh, im reallysorry for spouting nonsense towards you my dear, im really sorry. &i cant accept the decision you made cause yesterday was a whole differentstory.Labels: im a jerk.
wrecked. crushed. why? i deserved it. with him and girlfriends.and im hurting myself more than anything. crying endless nights wontlead me nowhere. slashing will only make me have scarred skin. urgh.i hope you would understand girlfriends that i just cant let it go. its toohard. & you, forgive my mistakes. im sorry. sheesh. im sucha crybabylaahhhh. bodoh lah nabila. jangan nanges, nanges nanges nanti butemcmne. uh booooo lah. and please lah, taknak excited pasal raye, birthday smue. dah takde gune nye lagi untok smua itu. everybody,say nabila is a stupid girl and she deserved being left by someone.):Labels: we ended it all just 15 days before ):
okay im so damn devastated these days.
and i lost my ever so precious bracelet that mr ______ gave me.
eventho, im still searching for that lost bracelet, i replaced
it with a new one and engraved his name on it. and mr ______,
if what your referring to its me & its the truth, should i step back?
you tell me cause im in a confused state. i mean, its as if i lost
everything about us since u acted that way when i msged
about the bracelet. im really sorry. yes, blame me and hate me.
im a stupid bitch. & i fucking hate myself.
Labels: more update in livejournal ):
MR WALKMAN IS BACK.how cool. [people, say cool can? thanks] atleast, i can play sims 2 at night to keep my mind occupied other thancrying or disturbing grrlfys in the middle of the night. hah. booooo. okay tmrw's performance, people, wish me good luck. but i think i can only smile if i face mister _____. i dont know, i tend to smile/grin when i see him. so, mister ______, i need your smile. thankyou ;] &&& again, i carelessly slashed my thumb. lost about 10ml of blood. booooo. & tml's exam, SHOUT/SCREAM! i dontknow why i sound so cheerful, maybemister _____'s msg lightened my sorrows. mister _____, dont let anyone else walk the long stretch with you okay? thankyou ;] && kay laah, must revise malay okay? toodles people.i pretend to smile because of you.i pretend because for you, i will.Labels: you are my fantasy;
people people people, playing pretend is just too hurtful. its like eating me inside. [sighs] how i wish i could just rewind the past and also let my grrlfys rewind their past which were their sweetest times and never unwind back. thats just a wish, and wishes dont happen ): kaaan? haish. i'll be getting my mr walkman tonight, its otw home with dad. whoooo.you know why i missed it so much? i also dont know.booooo. and now, dontknow laah. back to truth, cries & pretends.you left me clueless without knowing whats happening to us. i have alotof assumptions in mind but i kept praying its not the truth but hell, someone said you looked like your better off without me now ))))))):are you?Labels: i'll pretend, just for you to smile.
okay, im absent for school today cause im having stomach cramps and my body is aching plus, i have no mood to face anyone. i have update my livejournal and so yah, updating
blogger blog here. i have nothing to say & i miss my grrlfriends. PERIOD. i hope things are going well between them and yah, my W580i is away for repair. come home soon hunns. okay, booooo.
Labels: is forgiving that difficult?
okay im back home & im moodless & energyless after the wrestling match with juliet esai & meeerah kubor. my body is aching laah but still can tahan. fighter mahhh ;D hah. you guys should see the video. its hilarious. luckily it managed to get one thing of my mind which the feud between me and mister _____. seriously, why should i bea busybody. next time nabila, dont be a busybody and end up getting scolded because of your concern okay? okay, so i should just zip my mouth since someone hate me for asking about his condition. && i got a new phone, W580i.sadly, tmrw, i have to send it for repair. goodbye mrwalkman 580i ): people, more updates at livejournal lah.
